Approachable

Another meal, another round of strange conversations.  At lunch, Predad sat down with me.  Later, when Tamar came and Predad was gone, I complained about Predad coming around, saying I don't understand why she wants to be around me when I am not friendly towards her at all.  (I mostly didn't talk as she sat there.  I would rather eat alone, in silence, then listen to her mostly incoherent babbling.)  "Well isn't this a common problem for you?" Tamar asked. 
"What's a common problem?"
"Well, you know, since you're easily approachable." 
What?  I don't agree at all.  I don't her I feel like I have the exact opposite problem.  People don't want to come anywhere near me.  I complained about an episode from several years ago where someone said some nasty things about me, that implied, among other things, that he would rather not go anywhere near me. 
"He was just being a stupid boy!" she answered.  "He just wanted your attention, so he said those things."
Well, he most certainly got attention from me.  The negative kind of course, and then I began to avoid him because I was all "Uh-huh.  This guy is awful and mean and really?  I can't believe he said those things with absolutely no evidence." 
Tamar maintains that he wanted my attention.  I'm skeptical.  He had plenty of opportunity and could have used all sorts of false reasons to come and talk to me and we had mutual friends and he never used any of it.
The conversation ended with Tamar saying that "I don't know how men think!"
"I can tell you right now," Jenny chimed in.  "They don't think." 
Oh well good.  Another person giving guys a slide on the whole being brainless thing. 
I still disagree with Tamar about being approachable.  It's not that I generally try to turn people off, though there are time I actively try, it's that I'm not doing anything nice.  Really. 
I would ask other people what they think but I can kind of guess.  Josie would agree, though she would frame it differently than Tamar did.  Ashley would probably say something nasty about it.  Dan would say something about me being an enigma, which is a whole other thing I am frustrated with right there. 

Breakfast, Then Bed

I should have realized last night, when I woke up with a sore throat, that I was sick.  But instead I rolled over and fell back asleep.
When I got up this morning I felt awful.  I had a headache, the insides of my ears hurt, I was stuffy, my throat was still sore, and I was tired. 
But I went to breakfast anyway. 
I was honestly hoping just to get in and out of breakfast as quickly as possible, maybe drinking an extra cup of orange juice so I would feel better.  Baw. 
Anna decided she wanted to sit with me.  I told her I was sick, hoping to deter her, but it didn't. 
What I should have said was that I didn't have the stamina to have a polite conversation.  Anna's okay, but I get the feeling nothing is going on in her brain, or at least nothing worth mentioning.  She has sort of this weird voice.  I get the feeling she is trying to imitate a Valley girl, but mostly it just comes out as really annoying.  And she laughs at like everything.  I was not in the mood to deal with her, but I was trying to be nice. 
Part of the reason I don't spend time with Anna is because she has nothing to really say.  She just complains about school or talks clothes, and I would rather die than hear her complain about a teacher.  When people I respect critique a teacher, I consider it, especially if I've never had that teacher.  When someone who strikes me as mindless does, I'm suspicious. 
Sharon recently complained to me about how stupid people are around here, and for a long time I wanted to believe better, but she's kind of got a point.  There are only a few standout people who are really bright or interesting; so many other people are dull. 
Tamar came over to sit with us briefly too, and she talked about this Healthy Snack Week we have going on.  Basically, they're giving away free "healthy" snacks, though Tamar complained that cranberry juice wasn't that healthy.  Tamar is always in a rush in the morning so she left pretty quickly. 
Finally, I got away from Anna.  I spent all weekend not seeing or talking to people at meals, and then today, the morning I wake up, one of the people that would actually sit with me and irk me chooses to. 
I went back to bed after breakfast.